Indiana

Life has changed alot and I now live in Clinton Indiana with my parents. I never thought in my wildest dreams that I would ever move to the little town of Clinton Indiana let alone live with my parents again. It will only be for a few months until school starts.
School starts again in January for my batchelor of science classes. I will be attending Indiana State University in Terre Haute Indiana. The University requires that incoming freshman live in campus even if they have already attended college and are transfer students. I am a little apprehensive about living on campus but very excited to experience the college life. I am a littel worried that I will get paired with someone that I don't get along with but I am hoping for the best. I think it would be great if I can live with someone that is also pre dental, we could study together. Maybe I will get lucky we will just have to see....The campus is beautiful and I can't wait to be apart of it.
Look for future posts on what I find out about school and what my living arrangements turn out to be.

Current thought: Blessed
Currently Listening to: Dogs Barking

Trying Not To CRY... Its Very Hard!

Today I did one of the hardest things that I have ever done up to this point in my life. I said Goodbye to my all time best friend Brandi. Besides saying Goodbye to my parents and siblings a few years ago this tops the charts. I met brandi a little over a year ago when I went back to school for dental assisting. She was in my class of 21 and we hit it off immediately. We had so much in common and shared the same passion for music and Jesus Christ. God brought us together and no one will ever tear us apart. I can honestly say that she has become a TRUE friend that I will have for the rest of my life and I one day will have her working for me in my dental practice and I hope to raise our future children together. She has been a rock when I've needed someone to lean on and she has given me advice in times of turmoil. Up to this point in life besides Jesus Christ and my Mother she has been my backbone and someone I could always go to in support. The next few years are going to be very hard because it will be difficult not to have her standing by me available to see and talk to when ever I need her. Even though she is still alive and well I almost feel like I am mourning someone who has gone on. I pray that these next few years go by fast and we can then be reunited.

LOVE

This week has been all about Love. It consisted of many movies all about love and ended with Pastor Steven's explanation of what God wants our love life's to be about. Its interesting has anyone stopped to think about what this world wants people to think love is truly all about. We, me included sit and watch these "love" stories that have been created for our enjoyment and find ourselves wanting what these people have. A true undying love that is so compassionate and without fault. Does this really exist. How can this world make up such a beautiful example of love but when you look at what this world consists of... Marriages starting and ending in the same time frame. How is this possible? Is this world just as confused about what true love is truly? Well I am here to say that even though God hasn't brought me my "one" true love in the form of a husband... I can honestly say that I have found the only true love that is just as compassionate as the movies that we all turn to for examples of love and it does not consist of a male human being. His name is JESUS CHRIST and he is the only form of love that I could never live without. I will one day have the worlds version of love in the form of a husband but even though he will be a very important part of my life he will never be able to top the love that I have and have been shown by my Lord. I am so greatful that he is my everything, the reason that I breathe every day and continue to live in this world that is so full of fake love. He died for me a such undeserving person... Is that not the true definition of LOVE!

Currently Listening To: Kari Jobe's REVELATION SONG (very powerful!)

I have so much farther to go.....

Today I visited a new church called Elevation. They have three campuses with seven services between the three. I attended the one o'clock service at the providence high school campus. For those who read this that are looking for a God filled, Life changing, Young people driven service I would definetely recommend it. I had an awesome time and really wish that I could go back. The music was great the sermon was great the atmosphere was great!

The pastor was very down to earth but he had a lot of God inspired things to say. It really got me thinking.....

I have lived on this earth for 22 years so far and I am still only a infant in my walk with Jesus Christ. I have found myself claiming to me a follower of Jesus Christ but not truly showing the world Jesus Christ in me. I am truly 100% ashamed to sit here and say that I love the lord with all my being but I still don't read my bible on a daily basis, Pray on a daily basis, or get in that one on one prayer time in my prayer closet like I should. I am a failure on the inside and a fake on the outside.

I pray time and time again for God to take me deeper in my walk with him.... Take me to a level that I have never experienced before, yet I still sit on my butt and coast through life. I take the easy road out and I don't take a chance in turning my whole self 100% over to him. I don't know if I subconsciously don't want to have to deal with the hard times and the headaches that the devil will try to throw my way. Because you know that when you surrender truly completely over to God the devil sure tries to make it feel like you have just made the biggest mistake of your life. Pastor Steven from Elevation said this morning that without the winter hard times the spring times can't be rewarding. He was referring to dating... But I think it can also be representation of our walk with God. If we don't go through the hard winter times in our spirtual walk with God then we won't be able to get to the spring times let alone experience the high beautiful places in spring. The winter time is when the roots grow deeper and pruning happens. The roots grow deeper in the lord because you have to rely on him during those harsh winter months... and he using his pruning shears to prune away at your heart and make you like a new tree covered in buds for the spring.

My eyes have been opened and I am heading towards the spring season in my life.... Even though it is becoming winter outside in life it is going to be spring time inside my heart. I know that is will be a hard road to go down and I will stumble and make mistakes along the way, but I am going to take the words that I learned this morning and try to apply them to my life now. I will have to take baby steps but if I truly long for more of him I have to surrender and live completely for him

Love you Lord!!!!

God....Life....Love....Amazing!

Where should I begin....

Life is sure taking a turn that is completely unexpected. I have lived my life up to this point thinking I knew exactly where my life was going. I thought that I knew the plan for my life and it is changing dramatically. A few months ago I found myself on my knees crying out to God, I needed him to show me where I was supposed to go and what my life was supposed to consist of... Well I have definetely learned that he doesn't always let you see what you want to in that specific moment in time. While I was crying out to him he revealed a part of the plan for my life that I had been waiting a really long time to know. A promise that he had given me during a really hard time in my life. He had finally revealed what that promise meant. Wow, what was going to happen from then.... Well I finished dental assisting school and found myself longing for more. I still felt unsatisfied and felt like there was more....

Well he has led me to become a Dentist....Me a dentist... It was always my hope... Something that I have wanted to do for a really long time but just never felt that I was capable of doing it. Well not only has he showed me part of my promise but he has revealed to me that my dream can come true. So very shortly I will find myself living in the little town of Clinton Indiana pursing my dream of dentistry and hopfully also fufilling my life long promise that God gave me. Now you that are reading this are probably dying to know what my promise is.... But I just can't reveal that in this specific moment in time. Its still very sacred to me and still something that I feel that I share with my heavenly father and him alone. Now don't get me wrong I will have to show the world it eventually because the world is going to be impacted by it in shape or form... So you will just have to hold out like I did and see where God Leads me.