RESTORATION

Wow, in two days it will have been five months since I have typed even one single word into this blog. Life sure has been changing quickly but also going by with a snails pace. I have found myself going down so many different roads. Roads that I'm not so sure I want to go down. Wondering if the decisions that I have made have been the correct ones. Wondering if I really heard God's answer correctly. Trying to figure out why my life is going the way that it is when I truely know why. I need more of him and I'm not truely 100% committed. I always seem to get to this point in my spirtual walk and can't get over that hump. Up the hill. I long for more to go to that next level but I still revert back to my horrible habits. I know what I need to do but I seem to still have one foot kinda dangling over top of the fence, not necessarily sitting on the fence, just overtop.
I'm getting ready to embark on yet another adventure. I'm going to be included in a christian trio group. Brad Peelman and Karla Noorlag are my other bandmates. Its really new but it has gotten the gears in my head turning. I can't expect to be a blessing to God's people if I don't have my life right. If I'm not living close to perfect as I can. I long for the voices to bring in the holy spirit to a place and have people overwhelmed. I want blessings, healings, savings. I want POWER!
I don't wont to hide anything but I'm sorta scared. I know that God has his arms completely open and all he wants is for me to be as close to him as possible. I know what I need to do in every aspect of my life, I guess I just need to pray for God's help and guidance. I need to read my bible every day, absorbing his words/teachings to apply to my life. I need to have daily prayer time with him. I need to lay everything before his feet. I need to invite him in to every nook and cranny of my life. I need to give up the things of this world. Get healthy both in mind, body, and soul. I need, want, desire to be HELD!
I desire to not keep doing this with my life, returning to this same place over and over. I'm going to jump this hurdle once and for all.
THE BEGINNING!

Current Mood: Sad, Hopeful, Blessed
Currently listening to: Meredith Andrews: You invite me In